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Joanna anafunsa modera nkhawa zimene zinkachitikira mayi ake. Chifukwa gogoyo akuchita modabwitsa. Sakuvomera kuti mwana wake wamkazi akamucheze, ndipo akapita kukamuona, amaona kuti m’nyumbamo muli zinthu zambiri zamtengo wapatali. Mayi sakulongosola zomwe zinawachitikira. Kenako anabwereka ndalama zambiri kwa Joanna kawiri ndipo sabweza ndalamazo pa nthawi yake. Amabwerekanso kwa anzake. Komanso, amatenga ngongole yotetezedwa ndi nyumba yake ...

- Kuyesa kulikonse kumathera motsatana. Amayi amakuwa kuti asalowetse mphuno yawo mubizinesi ya anthu ena, Joanna akuvomereza motero. “Ndikumva china chake choyipa. Amatani? Kodi wina akumuchitira nkhanza?

Makhadiwo anavumbula choonadi mwamsanga. Kunali kuledzera. Pambuyo pa imfa ya mwamuna wake, mkazi anakhala player.

Ndinawauza kuti: “Mayi ako analephera kudziletsa kalekale. "Ngati simumutsimikizira kuti achire, ataya zomwe akadali nazo." Ndiyeno zidzakhala zoipa kwa iye.

“Ndinkayembekezera china chilichonse kupatulapo izi,” Joanna anapukusa mutu. - Tsopano ndikumvetsa ... ndili ndi mnzanga yemwe ndi wothandizira. Ndiyesetsa kukambirana naye za nkhaniyi.” Anachita kugwedezeka ngati akufuna kudzuka pampando wake. Thawani zomwe mukufuna

“Chonde dikirani,” ndinamuimitsa.

Makhadi anakugwiraninso ntchito. Mudzakhalanso chidakwa ndi chinachake. Ndikuwona chikondi chochuluka mu dongosolo, koma kumverera ndi kuledzera zimagwirizana mwachindunji.

“Sindinakhalepo ndi chizoloŵezi cha juga,” iye anayankha mwamphamvu.

"Masewera aliwonse a ndalama amangonditopetsa mpaka kufa." Sindingathe kulingalira mtundu wina uliwonse wa chizolowezi.

"Lero," ndinachenjeza, monga nthawi yawonetsera, mwaulosi. Mawa akhoza kukhala osiyana kwambiri. Chifukwa chake, lolani mayiyo athawe kwa munthu yemwe akuwoneka ngati maloto kuti akwaniritse bwenzi labwino.

Ndinadziwa zomwe ndikunena. Wokondedwa wa m'tsogolo wa Joana anaimiridwa ndi Mdyerekezi. Chingalawa, chomwe chinkaimira chilakolako cha wonyenga ndi wonyenga, chinaneneranso zoipa, zizoloŵezi, zowawa ndi mantha.

“Palibe vuto,” anavomera. Ndikuganiza zowapulumutsa amayi anga.

Tinasazikana ndipo Joanna analonjeza kuti alowa. Sanabwere, koma miyezi isanu ndi umodzi pambuyo pake tinakumana mumsewu. Chisangalalo chochuluka chimachokera kwa kasitomala wanga.

“Ndimakonda,” ananong’oneza motero. "Inde, ndikukumbukira zomwe udalosera kale, koma tarot sangatanthauze Julian." Iye ndi wodabwitsa. Zodabwitsa. Kupatulapo…Sindinakhalepo ndi zina zotero. Pabedi. Kugonana naye kunagwedeza dziko langa lonse. Sindinaganizepo kuti mungakumane nazo mwamphamvu chonchi. Pokhapokha ndikudzizindikira ndekha.

Ndinamvetsera ndikufunsa za amayi anga.

“Chiritsani,” anayankha mosakhalitsa, ndipo anabwereranso ku mutu umene unamuchititsa chidwi. Mawu aliwonse adabwerezedwa kachiwiri: iye, ndi iye, m'mawu ake ...

Ndinamulangiza kuti ayesetse kukhala ndi ufulu wodziimira payekha osati kutseka maso ake ku zophophonya za wokondedwa wake. Ndinamuitananso kuti abwere ngati akuona kuti n’kofunikira.

Nthawi imeneyo inafika patatha miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yotsatira. Kuchokera kwa msungwana yemwe akumwetulira, wokondweretsedwa ndi buku latsopanoli, panalibe tsatanetsatane wotsalira.Anandifinya ngati mandimu

“Ndinaona mwamsanga kupanda kukhulupirika kwa Julian,” iye anatero ndi liwu labata, “koma ndinali ndi chinyengo chakuti ndinali mkazi wake wofunika koposa. Ndinali wokonzeka kuchita chilichonse. Pazovuta zilizonse. Pogonana, tadutsa malire ena. Panali zinthu zimene sindinkavomereza, koma sindinayerekeze kuchita zionetsero.

Pambuyo pake, adandikakamiza kuti ndiyambe chibwenzi ndi anzake awiri akuyang'ana. Ndinachita zimenezi chifukwa chomukonda Julian, ngakhale kuti ndinkadziona ngati woipa. Ndinkafuna kutsimikizira kuti ndingathe kukwaniritsa malingaliro ake aliwonse ... Koma kenako ndinasiya kumusamalira mwadzidzidzi. Anandifinya ngati mandimu kenako ananditaya.

Sindingavomereze. Sindingathe kuchita popanda izo. Ndinamupempha kuti andikhululukire ngati ndalakwa. Koma ali chete. Sayankha maimelo kapena zolemba. Ndimamudikirira pamasitepe - amandikankhira kutali osanena chilichonse. Sindingathe kuzilandira. Ndidzafa. Ndidzipha ndekha. Kodi pali njira iliyonse yamatsenga yoti abwerere kwa ine?

Ndinagwira dzanja lake: "Ichi si chikondi, Joanna." Izi ndizopweteka kwambiri ndi munthu yemwe amadziwa kuvala masks osiyanasiyana. Kutengera zomwe mnzake akufuna, adzakhala wamphamvu kapena wofooka, wopondereza kapena wachikondi ... Koma sakonda wina aliyense koma iye yekha. Anakupangitsani kuti musakhale ndi ulamuliro pa moyo wanu. Simungathe kuthana ndi malingaliro anu. Ndi chizolowezi. Tsopano, monga amayi anu, chithandizo chamankhwala chokha chingathandize ...Maria Bigovskaya